Tuesday, March 10, 2009

maybe I turned it up so you would listen.

"I guess you know that I, uh,
love you so,
even though,
you don't want me no more,
hey, hey, hey, I'm cryin' tears,
all through the years,
I tell you like it is,
honey, love me if you can."

Perhaps my Freudian slip?

I long for moments like Sunday morning when we're laying in the grass and the leaves together with that certain comfortable silence that brings peace to my heart. It's as if time is frozen. I want to lay there forever.

I really wish I could grasp an understanding of this all. Why we can't be together? Why do you act so fickle towards me?

I'm so tired of cryin'! "I'm so tired of being alone!" I just want my baby back! I know you know how much I love you. I've never known anyone that projected so many emotions from me. It's truly unbelievable.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Just sayin'

"I think if you truly love someone you never get over them." -Wade Mahon

Wade told me that today. I thought about it for a little bit and I agree. I'm glad I have some pretty smart people surrounding me in life.

That's actually all for now.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Caring to learn, but mostly learning to care.

I really feel that I'm learning a lot more about myself than I ever did. This is a relief, finally. I've been so lost for way too long. I'm finally learning to be noble after about two years of Crystal telling me to "be noble" at the end of every conversation. I never really knew what it meant, but now I think I'm developing an understanding of it. I'm developing an understanding for so many things and it's beautiful.

Main Entry:
5: possessing, characterized by, or arising from superiority of mind or character or of ideals or morals : lofty

It turns out that life isn't just about defiance and arrogance. I always knew it wasn't about selfishness. One out of three is not so bad.

My morals are mainly based on the Christian morale because that's how I was raised, but I do practice 100% tolerance. I do believe in a God. He's my personal depiction of God and no one can take that from me.

I will always be fun loving, free spirited, adventurous, and an independent thinker. I'm learning responsibility, true passion, and humility.